In my castle on a cloud there are roses round the door ...
I think it's very important that we all have dreams to aspire to, and aims to move towards, but sometimes I'm guilty of not enjoying the moment I'm in, but instead looking forward to something in the future ... or living in the past and dwelling on things that should be long-forgotten.... and worse still, worrying about things that may never happen ...
When my children were little, it seemed that everyone else was urging them towards the next target ... weaning, first tooth, sitting up, crawling, walking, etc, etc ... looking back with hindsight, I feel a lot of pressure is put on us as Mums to have our children performing as is the 'norm'. I wish I'd enjoyed each moment when it happened, instead of hurtling towards the next milestone ... before you know it, they are grown up ...
Sorry for rambling, but what I think I'm trying to say, is that I don't want to conform any more! Don't panic, I'm not going to start breaking the law or anything drastic like that, I just want to live a much simpler life. I'm very lucky that I work from home and know that this isn't an option for everyone.
I love being at home, I've never been the career woman, even though I had a good job as a personal secretary (probably a PA nowadays!) before I had my children, but it seems that it's something we have to apologise for, not going out into the world to make a buck to enable us to buy all the material possessions, that because of the hours worked, there is no time to enjoy them. I'm rambling a bit aren't I?
My husband has a good job that enables us to get by ... and I earn money as a child minder which covers extras and my stock for vintage fairs ... we grow our own vegetables, keep chickens, furnish our home from second-hand warehouses, cook from scratch and a Chinese take-away is a rare treat. We no longer have family holidays abroad, (there have only been 3 in the whole of our married life, and we had to scrimp and save so much for them, they hardly seemed worth it!) as we are going through the 'uni years' ... and with 4 children, this is expensive. This is our choice, and we are lucky to be able to do this ... it's not for everyone, and I'm not trying to push my lifestyle onto anyone else.
We don't waste anything. Food left on plates goes in the dog ... other kitchen scraps go in the chickens or compost bin. Leftover food is made into something else and if we renew anything, the old item is recycled. Some people would view this as tight ... I know differently ... How can we justify throwing away last weeks food, just to overfill our fridges and cupboards with food that will be thrown away next week, when there are starving children, not only in the world, but also in our own home towns, where food banks are springing up regularly?
Just up the road from me a new Tesco has arrived. Oh the excitement! I'm not going to be so hypocritical to say that I won't ever darken its doors,because I will, but even more small, local businesses are going to suffer or even worse, close down. When I was first married, I could shop at a butchers, bakers, greengrocers, hardware shop, post office, chemist, florists, woolshop and more ... mostly these have gone, but I would far prefer this way of shopping than pushing a wonky trolley around a soulless supermarket.
What I'm trying to say is, I'm happy with what I've got, a lovely family, good health, roof over our heads and food in the cupboards. I don't hanker after the latest car or tv, I have my dreams, and if they come true that's fantastic, but if they don't, well that's ok too.
I don't want to come across as smug, and there are lots of people who will recoil in horror at my way of life, but it's my life and I like it! I also know that there are people who will think I'm extremely lucky and I do try to count my blessings every day.
What do you think? Would you like to opt out of the rat race on a small scale like me, or move it up a notch and be completely self-sufficient, or would that be your idea of a nightmare? Lets have a bit of a debate to get the cogs whirring ...
Have a lovely week,
Love, Claire xxx